SS-INTROSPECT #20: Harvesting Forgiveness

In the midst of hardship the tallest battle for your success is forgiveness.  Forgiveness appears in a multitude of seasons. The coldest being ” the winter of self forgiveness”. You may look back on your life after finding purpose, an regret will attempt to rear it’s head. The truths you are now privy too, which seem so obvious can cause anger. How could you be so blind ? Why did you waste so much time? What could you have done different? All popular yet empty questions. God’s timing is ordained. The man that is waiting for falls harvest, cannot eat from the crops ahead of schedule. No matter how hungry he is in the spring. These truths you must accept if you one day wish to have forward motion. But after you find comfort and accept your mistakes. You begin to heal and become stronger. Your awareness of your imperfection,  grants you a new look on life. Then the “finger pointing” comes . You start to notice those who saw your trauma unfold and said nothing.  They may have

Even aided in your negative trajectory. You question their love & respect and  your placement in their life. Again, here comes anger and his shitty little brother….despair.  The “spring of outward forgiveness” is upon you. How could somebody you love so much; let you self-destruct right in front of their pupils? How could they see your truth and remain silent if they really loved you? Should you continue the relationship aligned with your old standards or abandon the loved ones the same way you abandoned your lack luster habits and morals? All reasonable questions to ask yourself . But this is a time whereby you lean into the fuel that has born you anew. For me personally it’s God. For some others it’s the goal that they have decided on with definiteness.  Forgive those around you . So that you do not bring their baggage into a new relationship.  In forgiveness you open space in your heart to love freely again and with full potential. Ridding yourself of the past does not mean losing the morals of the present.  Just know it’s not your place to play God. You control only what you can control. If your new standards dwell in honesty and transparency keep those noble standards. Leave the decision making on your loved ones. See if they will rise to the occasion or allow your season together to end. Whatever their choice you must find respect. Your obligations are to God and a better version of self.

So now your taken care of the tangible. You’ve forgiven the body you dwell in and those around you. But what about the intangible. The greatest of all things. The almighty one who created you and everything around you. The one who created “all things ever existing” and “all things to later exist”. Do you harbor resentment towards him? The hottest summer season has approached. The “forgiveness of divinity”. He is all knowing and all creating of past , present , and future right ? He is perfect in all ways and created us in his image right? Couldn’t he have pulled out his golden dick and pissed a few sprinkles of prosperity to wake you from your negligent and self deprecating slumber . Well, he has already impregnated you with good will and discernment at birth. Why does it seem a child is always happy, joyous, and easily grateful? He is still filled with God’s light . He has not chosen to take on the world’s cold demeanor and ignore the earth’s warmth. A being in the world…not of it. You too must accept current circumstances , realign with the highest most honorable power, and take responsibility for your current space . If you are able to perform the necessities eat, sleep, shit, and grow. He has already granted you much favor . If you are aware and able to stand in truth alone, he is not only given you favor, but has written your ticket into heavenly peace. Release any negativity you may harbor towards him. Break away from the sour facades the world has placed on his true practices (Meditation, healthy eating, exercise ,etc). Know the “empty” vessels may hate you because their cup is “empty” . They are dehydrated and haven’t gulped the sweet taste of grace in sometime. Allow their foul stares and hatred filled remarks. The “Full” vessels  will smile because another has join them in divinity and the quest for truth & total prosperity .

Now here we are in “fall” and it’s time to “harvest your new self”. The soil is rich with fresh ideologies of self and those around you. Daily you remove weeds of old habits and plant seeds of manifestation. You use the bullshit of your past as fertilizer for new tangible crops to manifest. Its foul smell keep you reminded that you are in a garden of self belief. As long as you tend to it properly and daily, it forgiveness can make way for prosperity….Forever…..